It’s been a while again, that’s what to expect from me it seems. June was both eventful and uneventful. I made fairly major headway in my debut novel, but I still haven’t typed, “the end”. I just don’t feel like I am there yet. I feel like I have a complete story, but it’s missing something. I started this story about this time last year in my head. I began taking notes here and there but didn’t really put “pen to paper” so to speak, until November. During NaNoWriMo, I got my 50,000 words and made a HUGE dent in what I feel like is going to be a great novel. I decided in December to take a little break and then in January, it seemed as if I was still on that break. I didn’t completely abandon it, but I definitely didn’t nurture it the way I should have. Fast-forward to March and I picked it back up again and strong. I went through what I had written in November and the pieces from December and January, deleted quite a bit and wrote some more. I decided that I hated a lot of it, changed some things around, and gave myself a deadline of June 30th. Here we are, today is July 6th, but I can’t call it quits. I’ve moved said deadline indefinitely, but I can’t help by feel like one side of my brain says, “Ashley, you’re finished. Polish it up and get moving!” and the other side is saying, “Ashley, this is crap. You are crap. Delete it all and forget you ever tried.” Now, I know that we all have this kind of feeling, especially when we are creating something so near and dear to our hearts so I am pushing away the devil and continuing on! July will be a great month! It’s one of my favorites, my birthday month, and I plan to be positive and productive and get this dadgum book finished! June was a sludgy, sloggy, muddy month and I just want to forget all those doubts that keep creeping in and finish this book once and for all!!
Thanks for joining me in my journey!
xo – Ashley