I love lists. Grocery Lists. Lists of things to do today. Lists of things to do this month. Things to accomplish by X date. I make lists all the time. But I fail. I don’t always complete my lists. When I do though, I feel SUCH a sense of accomplishment. Last year, err well, 2 years ago, on my 24th birthday I felt so disappointed in my life thus far. It was silly of me, sure. We all have different accomplishments, but I just wanted more for myself. So I made a list. A list of 25 things to do before I turned 25. I completed 24 of them (zip lining is the only one I haven’t made it to :(). I felt SO great last year. Some of the items on my list- lose 25 lbs., get a degree, go parasailing, canoeing, buy my parents dinner, etc. I checked almost all of them off and it was wonderful. This year, my 25th year, I feel like I’ve undone a lot of that progress. I got my associate’s degree last year and was continuing to get my bachelor’s degree but I just don’t want a business degree so I guess I’m not giving it my all. This makes me feel like a failure, but my heart simply isn’t in it. I’ve gained back a bit of that weight I lost and that makes me feel terrible, and why? What happened to send me in this downward spiral? Who knows. All I know is that I need to find my motivation and get back out there. After crossing all that off my list last year, I made a list of 30 things to accomplish before I turn 30. One of those is to write a book. I’ve started and stopped that many times in the past few years but I WILL publish a book by the time I’m 30, whether it’s worth reading will be debatable. 🙂 I also want to run a marathon, buy a house (checked that off this year), and several other important and some not as important things. So I’m off today to finish some projects and find some motivation to take back control of my life so I can cross the ones that I have undone back off and cross off some new ones!
The first step towards getting somewhere is deciding you’re not going to stay where you are.