Well, it’s been a few weeks since my last post, as usual. Almost a month. I’m terrible at keeping up scheduled posts but I will forever work on it. In my last post, I was freaked out in anticipation of NaNoWriMo. I feel like this is a common feeling. Throughout Nano, I wanted to post but I just kept writing. I guess that was ok, because I won! I buckled down and wrote everyday in November and I hit the goal of 50,000 and then a little bit by November 29th. I was unbelievably proud of myself! Since then, however, I have only written about 3000 words. I feel slightly ashamed of this. I did 30 days worth of writing every day. I did need the break come December 1st but I only intended to take a week off. But that lead to another week and here we are. Two weeks later and I’m not much closer to finishing my book. The 50,000 word mark is just past halfway in my story but i have so much more to tell. I took the first week off and I was going to catch up on some of my ARCs for my other blog, That Book Life, and then I was going to come back to writing my book. The first book I picked up was terrible. I just couldn’t connect with the story. I hate to put a book down without finishing it, so I tried to push through but I just couldn’t do it. I found myself rolling my eyes at the dialogue and the characters were just unrealistic to me. Maybe they were too cliche. There were too many scenes that didn’t flow well. Either way, I put that book down at 30%. Maybe I will pick it back up, maybe not. I wrote all that to say that it freaked me out all over again. What if MY book is that terrible? What if I’ve messed up my dialogue where people can’t tell who’s talking or whose POV it is? I know I can’t let fear get to me, but I am just being honest in saying that I’ve let it hold me back thus far and that is my own fault. So starting today, after I finish this blog post, I’m going to pull up my WIP (work in progress), and I’m going to write. I’m going to set a timer for thirty minutes and just write. I’ve also dubbed Friday to be a writing day. I’m off work and my step son will be at school and my husband at work. My personal goal for December, coming off the high of winning NaNoWriMo and getting further in one story than I ever have before, was to finish my first draft and name my novel (I never knew how hard that would be!!) At this point, I just really want to finish the first draft if it is the last thing I do! So now I’m off to attempt to do just that.
Until next time,
xoxo – Ashley